He lied to me about talking to girls online, the trust is broken, what should I do?
I've been with my boyfriend for 3 years now, we used to be happy and we went on and off 3 times before, but we couldn't stand being away from each other. So we always end up back together
I always had trust issues as he normally doesn't talk to girls that much unless he's hooking up with them, and that's what made me feel suspicious every time he chats with girls on fb while we're together, and because of that we fought a lot.
lately i found out he deleted the conversations he had with the girls because i had his fb password, I knew about it because I opened his fb while he was chatting and he told her to give him his number and if there's a chance they could meet up, I confronted him about it and he said thet he deleted the conversation because he knew I would make a big deal out of nothing and that he is allowed to talk to girls and that I was paranoid and overly jealous, I couldn't stand that he lied to me and hidden the conversation or maybe conversation(s), who knows, so I told him I can't be with someone that I cannot trust and we ended it. after that I was just curious to find out what he did more, I found out he had sent inappropriate pictures of him to a girl from his email.
We had another fight and we ended it for good
That was 3 weeks ago, I truly love him and I know he does
He used to be an absolutely amazing guy and everyone would tell me how respectful he is, but the last few months were like a tornado for his character, he's 21 (almost 22) he started smoking and was so depressed because he had some issues that were affecting him negatively physically and emotionally, I don't know if he did what he did because of what he's going through or is it a non-negotiable situation, should I go back to him and try work things out and help him get back on track, because I know he needs me and i need him too, or should I let him go and move on?
I know he's suffering like I am but I just can't forget about all that and have no self respect and throw myself at him after what he did, I need him to appreciate me and work hard to gain my trust again, but at the same time I can't stand being away from him.
I need advice please, I really do love him and I can't imagine being with someone else. What should I do?