Shyali -Chapter I - My story of life

Shyali
Dosto mere naam Shyam hai, main Delhi rehta hu aur aaj itna akela hu ki apne akelepan ko dur krne ka zaria is story likhkar kar raha hu. Mere bachpan me hi parents ki death ho gyi jab mein 8 saal ka tha. Parents ne love marriage kiya tha jiske karan dada ji ka asirwad to kya chehra tak na dekh pya kabhi. Parents ke marne ke bad mujhe Mumbai se Kolkata masi ke ghar laya gya fhir Jamsehpur Bokaro ek masi se dusare tak instalment me bachpan gujara. Padhai me thoda acha tha, schooling achi hue convent missionary school me pata nhi kaise. Paise ki dikkat kabi mehsus nhi hui sare ladke mujhe shayad isilye sir pe bithate the. Dekhte hi dekhte 18 saal ka ho gya tbi achnak life ka pehla gift mila. Mujhe pe kuch kagaz pe sign karwaye gaye aur phir duniya hi badal gayi. Ek ek rupay ke liye tarasne laga. Ek dost ke dad ne hint diya ki teri property pe kabza ho gya jot ere parents ka tha aura b to apni relatives ke liye bojh hai. Samjhdar tha aur mere mein self respect our pride kuch jada hi paidaishi hai, dosto ke sath ek din bag uthaya our Delhi chala aya ,ek naya Shyam.
Jitna aasan ghar se bhagna hai use kai guna jada life ki dikkate hai. Kuch aur to nhi kar sakta tha to home tution dene ki kosis kri lekin use bhi pane me pasina chut gya tab ek tution mila 100 rupey monthly ka ( 2003 years). Jin dosto ke sath kiraye per eh raha tha sabne wapsi ka rasta chuna, kisi ko admission ache college me nhi mila, kisi ko hawa pani suit nhi kiya aur koi paiso ke karar are haan usme to ek ladka raat me sote wakt darn eke karan bhag gya(Chandan). Lekin Chandan ne delhi akar 6 mahino me ek kaam to bada acha kiya, body building ka, daily gym jata tha achi body banayi thi pata nhi kis kaam ki. Khair ab akela rehna tha tution ki kamai to Lok Sabha ka bill ho gya aage badhne ka naam hi na le. Natiza college chodna pada, kabi marketing to kabhi off jaise taise kaam nikal raha tha lekin kabhi kisi ki yaad na ayi are koi hona bhi to chaiye apna jiski yaad aye. Dobara tution start kiya kyuiki padhna tha, is bar kismat achi thi ek madam ne Anand vihar me tution lagwaya. Acha paisa mila aur respect bhi, sare bache mujhe like karte the aur mein us colony me famous ho gya, kyuki mein kafi friendly aur humble tutor tha especially me weak student ko kafi confidence dilate tha aur result bhi acha hua natiza income badha. Student mujhe sir kam dost jada mante the aur mera sarir jo aaj tak badha hi nhi bas dadhi muche aa gyi. Hairani hogi apko jaan kar ki class , 6-7^th ki girls purpose kar deti thi bina dare. Khair ye to unka bachpana tha maine ab phir se college me admission liya DU correspondence aur padhna padhana suru. Paisa aur health ache the, maine bike bhi karidi Pulsar kafi popular bike thi us samay. Ab life me sab acha chal raha tha to pata nhi kyu pyar karne ka chaska laga. Bhai isse jada khatarnak hatiyar aaj tak nahi bana nuclear out atom bomb to insan ke sarir ke chitde uda deta hai lekin ye agar galat jageh ho jaye to aatma ke chitde ud jate hai maut bhi naseeb nhi hoti. Relaince ka phone tha r world chat se ek ladki se bate start hui, number exchange kiya phir call. Uska naam Kavita tha, mere se pehle din hi bate karte2 boli ki r world me ex ladka aur bhi hai jisse use friendship kari hai. Mera matha thanka aapka bhi hoga, lekin isme fark hai, aapka dimag isliye thanka ki ek friendship se mai kya bawal macha raha hu, lekin bhai logo mai thoda hatke hu, mujhe ek aisi ladki chahiye jiske life mein sirk main hu aur meri life me sirf wo. Baki sab kaam ki bate, lekin friend banana mujhe acha nahi lagta aur mujhe pata hai aap me se 95% log mujhse sehmat nahi hoge lekin mein 5% me se hoon. Natiza, Kavita ko meine saaf2 keh diya aur use ye bhi kaha ki wo galat nhi lekin meri soch kuch aur hai. Usne mujhe pagal bataya aur us din ke baad hum bate nahi karte the lekin uska msg ata rehta tha. Fhir meri life mein ek ladki usi rworld se aayi, Harsh naam tha uska, mujhe simple gharelu girl pasand hai aur usne kuch aisa hi bataya apne bare mein.
Mere liye love word ka matlab tha shaadi karna aur jo sara jamana kehta hai TRUST, iske definition alag2 hai logo ke bich. Kuch ladkiyan kehti hai agr trust karte ho to mere ane jane karne pe jada sawal mat uthao aur hum jaise kehte hai waisa kaam hi mat karo ki sawal uthana pade. Example mera affair r world se suru hua mujhe mili ladki jise me pyar karu our shaadi karu aura b mera r worl chat se koi matlab nhi hona chaiye leikin kuch log kehenge chat pe dost bi to hote hai sabse pyar to nhi karte, phir mera sawal wohi ek hi ladka friend ho aur partner aur mere saat bhi yahi rule apply hota hai. Harsh ne kaha wo bhi bilkul aisa hi sochti hai. Fhir hum dono ne apne past ke bare me btaya, meri life me to ek ladki ayi thi Kavita jisse mein aajtak mila tak nahi wo maine Harsh ko btaya . Usne kaha ki wo aaj tak kisi ladke se mili nahi sirf chat pe dost hai aur koi nahi. Simple Govt school se padhi hai aur past koi affair nahi. Dono ne ek dusare ki tarah soch kaha aur relation aage badha. Wo 17 ki thi aur mein 21 ka. Life mein romance suru hua aur humne kaafi nazdiki mein waqt guzara. Mujhe wo achi lagti thi aur main shadi karna chata tha aur haan maine apko btaya nhi ki mein sirf poor family wali ladki hi chathta tha kyuki mujhe apni okat pta tha koin akela ladka ke liye riste choti ghar me hi ache se jud sakte hai. Iska reason hai money kuki mein akela hu kiraye pe rehna hai, khud ki kamai se ghar chalana ha mera manana tha ki sirf choti ghar ki ladki hi mere sath khus rahegi. Harsh waise hi ghar se thi aur Kavita to kafi jada dikat wale family se thi (money issue).

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Shyali: Chapter II
Harsh ko mein kafi seriously leta tha kyuki mein sochta tha jiske sath rista banawo usise shadi kro aur ghar basawo. Mujhe hamesa se laga ek ladka ladki ki life me kabhi kisi dusare friend ki jarurat nhi honi chaiye. Riste badhte gaye aur humlog physical relation mein aa gaye do mahino ke ander. Wo mere room aya karti thi aur mere liye ye sab pehla experience tha aur mein dara hua tha shyad isi wajeh pehli baar kuch kar na ska. Wo kafi naraz hui fhir jab2 humdono sec karte mujhe aisa mehsoos hota tha jaise uski body kisi se mujhe compare kar rahi. Use apni family ke sath gaon jana pada aur fhir wo mujhe phone pen a bat krne ki excuse dene lagi. Uska ph na lagane pe maine uski ek friend ko call krke uski khabar lene laga aur isi bich mein Kavita se bate share krta tha aur kafi rota tha Harsh ke relation ko lekar. Ek din uski friend ne mujhe bato mein btaya ki Harsh to kafi pehle bhi job krti thi karib 2 saal tak aur uska ek serious relation bhi raha. Mere liye ye sab ehsaas pehli bar tha aur mein uske dhoke ko bhula nahi pa raha tha. Ek din mujhe Harsh ne past life ke bare mein bata hi diya aur mere gusa hone pe kaha tum kya sharif bante ho tumhara bhi koi past hoga. Mujhe kya pata tha ki life mein pehli bar kisi ladki se rista banawunga aur 3 mahine me itna kuch ho jayega. Mera akelapan mujhe khane laga kyuki maine uske sath rista khatm kar diya tha.
Kavita mujhe aksar call kiya karti thi aur mein uske sath dukh share karta tha. Kavita ke sath friendship kiye karib saal ho gaye aur hum kafi kam mile the jadatar ph pe bate karte the. Kavita ki behan Anjali (14 years) mujhse aksar ph uthane ke bahane indirect bate karti thi. Mein 20 years ka tha aur hamare bich 7 saal ka gap so kabhi us nazar se dekha nhi. Ek din bato hi bato mein Anjali ne mujhse personal life ki bate kari aur mujhe kaha ki jaisi meri soch hai wo bhi thik waise hi sochti hai. Uski age ke karan maine uske bato ko serious nahi liya lekin wo hamesa mujhse ander hi ander like karti thi aur kuch sochti thi. Mein Harsh ke sirk 3 mahine ke relation ke karan kafi toota hua tha aur life mein jaldi koi decision nahi lena chahta tha lekin Anjali mujhe bharosa krne ko kehti rahi. Aaj bhi meri life mein itna kuch hone ke bad meri soch hai agar kisi ladki ke sath mera affair ho to mein aur kisi ke sath friendship aur bate nhi karunga. Anjali baar2 kehti thi mujhe ek mauka do aur wo shabit kar degi ki wo bhi isi soch ki ladki hai. Dosto yah ape mein kuch kehna chahta hu, humsab ki soch alag2 hai aur mein dusari ki soch se koi sikwa nahi karta. Mein nhi manta ki agar mein kisi ladki se friendship karne tak ko bura manta hu to duniya bhi mane lekin mein aaj bhi aisa hu. Mujhe life mein humsea ek aisi ladki se rista nibhana tha jo sirf mujhe apni duniya mane aur mein use. Shayad meri akelepan ke karan aisa sochta hu ya kuch aur mujhe pata nahi. Mera mana hai agr koi relation mein ho to baki sari ladkio se sirf kam ka matlab rkho aisa nahi ki love ek ke sath aur baki sare friend. Aisa manane wale log na ke barabar hain aur mujhe narrow minded kahnge lekin mujhe koi fark nahi padta. Sabka kehna hai love apni jageh aur friend apni jageh koi jaruri nahi ki ladki mujhse love karti ho to dusara koi ladke uska friend na bane . Tum jaise ho wo tum wo aur mujhe isse koi paresani nhi lekin mein aisa sochta hu au raise hi ladki ke sath nibhawunga. Ek saal ho gaya Anjali mujhse jawab chahti thi lekin mein dara hua tha. Uske determination ko jankar aur mere tarah lagaw ko dekhkr mein bhi ab use miss karne laga. Jada bate hone lagi aur wo to abhi 11^th mein padh rahi thi aur mein 2^nd year mein. June06, 2006 humlogo ne milne ka faisla kiya aur 19^th ko wo Delite movie haal ( Daryaganj) ke samane ayi aur mein bike pe uska wait kar raha tha.
Use dekh mujhe aisa laga jaise ek gulaab ke phool ko kisi gande kagaz mein lappet diya ho. Meri aankhon ko aaj tak itna khoobsurat aur acha koi na laga tha. Humlog waha se Delhi Zoo gaye aur agar aap kabhi waha gaye to waha pe ek pond hain, humlog uske samane baithe aur kafi der tak batein ki. Wahi batein ki humlogo ki soch milti hai to humlog ko koi dikkat nahi hoga . Sarir se mein ek teeage lagta tha to use kuch laga hi nahi ki 7 saal bade se usne riste ki sochi hai wo kafi khus thi lekin mein ander se dara hua tha. Ek dar meri soch ka aura b dusara dar uski khubsurati ka ho gaya. Maine pehle bhi bataya hai ki wo kabi garib family se hai iski wajeh se uske kapado se shayad log uski khubsurati se jada uske sarir ko dehte hoge. Ek purana kapade ka shoes ache se dhokar pehan rakha tha aur jeans tops apne akhri padawo pet ha. Ye sab dekhkar mujhe itna bura laga jaise mera koi baraso se bichda mujhse dur aisi halat mein reh raha ho. Us wakt bas man kiya ki use duniya ki sari ache chize lakar du. Maine Anjali se kaha humare age gap hai isilye humlog ek dusare ko time denge. Ye sunkar wo roni lagi aur kahi mein use dekhkar aisa bol raha hoon lekin use kya pata mujhe uski surat kitna pyara laga. Usne kaha shayad uski garibi karan ho lekin maine use bataya ki mein pyar to usi se karta hoon lekin thoda wakt aur dete hain. Usne kaha 2 saal se janti hai mujhe sabkuch suna hai ab kya time chahiye mein sirf bahana bana raha hoon. Maine use gale se lagakr bharosa dilaya aur humdono kafi der take k dusare se gale mile rahe aur phir ek pyar k arista suru hua….. Continue Chapter III

Brother, I seriously think that dating a teenage young girl who had crush on you is not good idea. She had crush on you, she was too young at that time.