I have never been able to get over my break up with my best friend whom i fell in love with. But she used me emotionally and psychologically, I was an emotional punching bag. But i still loved her even though i called it off with her. Ever since then i wanted to be loved by the guys i liked.However,the guys i liked always seemed to be wrong for me. After all that, I decided to involve in a no strings attached relationship with this guy i became friends with. But I got attached to him and realized that I cant do this "no strings attached" without getting burnt. I called it off. But i hurt my friend's ego, And he is angry with me for caring for him. I dont want to love him but i am so close to love him. And i confessed this. He hated the fact that i want to keep distance with him, and that I have new guy friends. He made it clear that he wants me and smooched me. I had to push him away. I now realize that he likes me. But he does'nt want to get involved with me since he made a horrible mistake of two timing his girlfriend, who on knowing about this, committed suicide.Ever since then, he is been having non-commited relationships with many girls. I knew that and what he wanted but I fell in love with him. I dont want to hurt him neither with my feelings, nor with my expectations of a relationship which he cant promise. just when all this is happeing to me, I get to chat with my ex-best friend and she wants me back. I rejected her and that led to a heated argument. Though intellectully i felt i won, I still dont feel a closure. What the hell am I suppose to do? My life has become a mess.
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