Hi priya,
By the time you will get this message, damage would have been done. We tried our level best, but, your boyfriend gave up I cannot blame him completely because, nothing was in his hands too.
I can understand how pathetic you must be feeling. I am not going to ask you to smile or move on now. But I just want you to
First, take care of your health. This level of mental stress is not good. It's okay, yaar. We have all experienced this pain at some point in time. It's not happening for the first time. Why do you think a forum like this has a section on Love, Relationship Advice and why a person like me is giving advises for free? We know things go wrong. All we can ever do is try. Try to mend things up, try to make them happen in a right way. Your case was completely different, where nothing was in your control. If things would have been in your hands, you would have fought a tough fight.
But I really applaud you for the efforts that you have put in to make things right. All this time, we were together and I could make out how disgusting you were feeling.
Second, take some time out and try to leave the place for a while. Go for a vacation, go out to your friend's place, go to your relatives, just move out of that place. It's very important. For all that you have been through, I guess, its time dear when you are done and you should not let these things bother you too much.
I know how you must be feeling. You want to be alone, left alone so that you can think about him, cry out loud, squeeze out the pain inside you, etc. Go for it. Book tickets, go somewhere else. Staying in that place will make things worse for you. Come back only when you feel its okay.
Don't expect a call from your boyfriend now, don't call him now. There's absolutely no point. We have been trying from past couple of months. Now, it makes no sense.
Just Relax yourself. Let it happen. Let things happen, they will happen on their own and you cannot do anything. Just cool down, cry as much as you want. Ask your mother to give you your space and time and stop shooting these questions on you. No need to explain her anything, she won't understand. Parents don't. So, its you who has to cope up with all this and nobody's going to help you out in this.
Relax, vent out every feeling, think about everything, cry out loud and burst out your emotions first. Cease contacts with your boyfriend. If I would have been at your place, I would have done the same. Would have cut off for a while from everybody till my head is light. That's what I want you to do right now. EAT PROPERLY. Like it or not, but dear don't stop eating.
We are there to help you out !!!!
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