Lost interest in life - married against my will and I dont like my wife
Hi all,
My name is akshay I married to a girl on a compulsion of my parents about 5 months ago. We never have a happy life. The way she speak irritates. Here is the reason why I don't like her. I was in love with a girl deep love. We are made for each other. Everything was going fine. All of a sudden one day my dad without my knowledge knowing am in love he arranged for an engagement in our village. I was not in situation to go against my dad because it will put my dad bad before the village also he is the person who had lived for my sake. I dint get a chance to speak to the girl since it's a village. Later I called up the girl and have stated that am in love with another girl. So let's stop the marriage as we both will not lead a happy life after marriage. He was behavin odd without mature enough was sayin same thing that she will die. Meanwhile my mother had committed suicide and was admitted in the hospital. Somehow marriage date was nt fixed for 3 months. I tired to explain the situation to that girl she was saying the same. One side I am much worried about my gf who was meant to be my lyf. Even her family were not supported to our love. We were not in a situation to go against our parents as they lived for our sake. Hence we sacrificed our love. Currently it been 5 months I don't lyk d girl whom I married when ever I see her I get a feel that she spoiled my love and whole life. I had much dreams and she never suits to it. The way she speak also sounds indifferently since married she is being with respect. Before my marriage on very first day when we called me teased my physique and speaking lyk a crap. Now I don't have interest in my life also I can't adopt to her since it done against my wish and on a compulsion. Also my heart pricks that I lost my love and cheatd my girl. I heard that my girl still cry for me by thinking about the memories. I myself screwed my whole life and as wel my gf. I don hav interest to live a life with a girl to whom I got married on a compulsion. Till now I never had wnt out with her. Even she too being silent without bothering about my behaviour. Al of a sudden without my knowledge my bro and whole family called my gf yelled threatened her on my bday that am with her and she is the reason for spoiling my life and makin me not to live wit the girl whom I married I was speaking till before that. Later because of my family behavior I stopped my communication with her as it gonna put her and future into a problem . But she was not nt a reason to spoil my life. It was they themselves who spoiled life and love of us. Always my whole family keep checking my call logs messages and tracing my locations to see whether am in touch with her still. It really irritates me when I see this. Every1 advise me to adopt my life with her. But I don like i lost the girl who loved me so much for my parents sake. I literally dono wat do in my life kindly help me to proceed.