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hello, just thought i ll write ma feelings again.. I out but not completely.. But i can feel it that i have accepted it. But facing a after math here. Every one who knew we are in liv-in from 3yers and bout get married thy give me sympathy which i really hate, All are talking behind my back how she used me n all. AND its killing me. My parents are treating me like a baby but somewhere i feel I am a big looser thats why every one is trying to take care of me. I know she is ahead of me on healing process being dumper. Well sometimes thought crosses my mind Do i really deserve this. How can she sleep on my shoulder knowing her engagement is there next day. Can some one be soo spine less to end the relation abruptly. Even death person can accept, Din she think for a moment what all I ll go through if she runs away from my place. What da F i was doing for three years how i din see it coming, Now i am scared of loving other person, She just ran away and put me in strange moral situation where If i do anything ppl will say I am wrong. What a nice game she played .. just to stop my reaction she told me wrong dates n got engaged next day only. Her mom knew about this.. Thy all planned it and executed it with accuracy. Well my anger phase is not there any more.. but when I smell sympathy from my friends and family i feels like screwing her life. its just madness, she and her mom managed to put me on mute. she fooled me and i cudnt do anything.
what kinda human she is man!! how can one live with themselves.. how can some1 be soo selfish.
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Re-opened the wound,
I was all set on ma path to recovery, but stupid mind was telling me to wait till her marriage before i start new serious relation. Since i was not aware of her marriage date, I decided to ask her about it telling why i wanna know. AND i sent her a mail.
re-opened the wound, she told her bro, her bro called me with all damkiz, why i wanna know n all. then my x spoke, this call was good for me, it was amazing to see how she has done her reset n reboot. she told me i shud not be worried abt her marriage dates, If she wants she will do it today,tomaro or 10 years from now.
Lots of arguments but bottom line "_TheEnd_" .
