Hi Pulkit,
First of all, congrats on being eMOTM.
And now my old problem.. U know my friend, I think she will NEVER love me. I have done everything I could, to make her understand her importance in my life, but i don't think that she will ever understand me. Today I am really sad. All my efforts have failed. Let me tell u what I have been doing all this time that I could not even talk to u..
I told u that she was leaving her job. She got an offer for a new job. The new place is a little far, I mean it takes around one hour from her place to her new office. She has never traveled alone before. So I took the leave from my office and went with her for her interview. Although I did not like that place, but as the offer was good she accepted.
I knew that she can not travel alone so I QUIT my job and I have been coming with her in the morning and going back with her in the evening Daily from 17 days. This is my daily routine from 17 days. I get up early, get ready, go to her home, come to her office with her, then whole day I kill my time walking here n there or sitting in the park etc. In starting two days she came down to take lunch with me, but not after that. Then in the evening I meet her outside her office, travel to her home with her, then go back to my home. The whole time I treat her as a princess.
Her family members know that I go with her daily, she has lied to them that I have also joined there. But still she does not treat me even as a friend, she ignores me, But now I don't have much strength left my friend..
This feeling of being 'unwanted' is killing me now and I don't know for how long I can continue with all this. One of my friends said to me, "What u r doing is madness. A person needs a lot of intensity in his relationship to do these things. U left your job, New job offers r there but u r not joining because u are very much concerned for her safety and care. I know u love her so much. And I know she will not get a loving person as u. I don't know she loves u or not, but believe me, SHE IS TAKING YOU FOR GRANTED NOW. SHE IS NOT WORTH ALL THIS LOVE IF SHE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND IT. You r the only son of ur parents, so plz save yourself and LEAVE her."
Is he saying right ??
And my condition is really worst now brother, I don't know what to do or what more I can do. I mean I am totally broken and shattered today. She gives attention to strangers but not to me. It's like I don't exist for her..
Today I feel that if she can not understand my feeling after all this then she will never understand my feelings.
My heart is just going through Hell now a days, Plz Get me out of it.... I just beg u to suggest me something to get me out of this.
Plz Save Me My Friend..!!