I am shubhangini from akola
i am in love with a muslim guy who is elder to me by 11 yrs we started dating when i was in 10th and now im 26 we r in serious relation i am Punjabi Brahmani girl from upper middle class family . ,y parents are dead against my relation as i am trying to convence them from last 4 yrs i don't want to ran away and get married this way
as i am beautiful looking typical Punjabi girl and guy is not good looking. we have different standard of living
i am ready to live with him in his conditions and we believe we can settle our life and we ll buy house once we ll get married but my parents are very low bcoz of my decision of not getting married according to them . thogh there was severe fights between us and he used some slang's for my family at that time i told my parents to search for boy ill get married according to their will . but after that he realized his mistake and he again trying to convence me i know he loves me he ll die without me , but some times i feel guilty for doing all this , or on very next moment i feel to go back to him and sometimes i think that ill stay happy only with him and not with the guy with whom they ll merry me .
i feel insecured if ill merry him again he ll use all slang's with me and i wont be able to get accustomed to his religion .
my parents dont find him compatible to me by any how i m phd DR . by profession and he is just diploma enginner and he does some property business he say that he can do anything for me . he keeps me happy by any way that i know . but major issue is i cant leave my parents as they always given me all freedom more than my sister or brother . they alwaya treated me a boy in family . when i leave that guy he is nothing without me he stop working ajust pray all the time and cry . what should i do now
i want only solution to this problem
i am not sure weather i ll stay happy with him forever leaving my parents. and i cant see him crying even
i have asked this question on many sites but din got any answer yet plz helkp me